Hangovers - we could live without them, but they have to be this malicious kind of enemy that is being consistently, teaching us to drink maturely. If I believed in God, I might think that this was some kind of consequence like death, rapists etc. But no, as my father-in-law said earlier: "Hangovers are Satans answer for cruelty to the mindfucked!"
Last night: I was up until 6am, because I couldn't sleep. Too many thoughts in my head that made me... sleepless. The thoughts in my head is being a rollercoaster, they change from positive to negative in a split second. I'm not thinking straight and that might be because of some certain person that Im not going to mention.
So this post is negative thoughts, opinions etc. Im suck an asswipe huh?
Feb 10, 2010
Feb 9, 2010
I'm feeling quite odd...
It's only 9:15am here, in the shitty place you can call a country. Yes, I don't like the UK, but mostly of all, I don't like Hexham. Hexham shouldn't have the rights to be called a town or a city, it's way too small and way too malicious. I like the café and my hairdresser (only because she is cheap) and I do like Tesco, only because my best friend works there! There's nothing to love here, even though every tourist in the goddamn town, loves the landscape and the traditions etc. Do we have any traditions here? Do we have anything out of the ordinary that should be special?
I've lived up here my whole life, in different cities. I've travelled from Acomb to Hexham, to Corbridge to Newbrough, back to Hexham, and now I live in Prudhoe. It's been hell, only because there is nothing to do. I go to school and I work, that's it. I wish just to move as far away as possible! Maybe to the US or India.
I love India, though I can't speak the language. I love their religion and I also love their english accents! They're so cute. We had some exchange student from India come live with us for 6 months (it's about 1-2 months since she left) and I learned like nothing. She told me about her religion (Hinduism) and I was beyond fascinated!
Anyways, I have to go. My physics class is going to start whenever.
I've lived up here my whole life, in different cities. I've travelled from Acomb to Hexham, to Corbridge to Newbrough, back to Hexham, and now I live in Prudhoe. It's been hell, only because there is nothing to do. I go to school and I work, that's it. I wish just to move as far away as possible! Maybe to the US or India.
I love India, though I can't speak the language. I love their religion and I also love their english accents! They're so cute. We had some exchange student from India come live with us for 6 months (it's about 1-2 months since she left) and I learned like nothing. She told me about her religion (Hinduism) and I was beyond fascinated!
Anyways, I have to go. My physics class is going to start whenever.
Feb 8, 2010
An old poem!
I wrote this poem back in the days, about '05 to be accurate. I wrote it for my boyfriend, whom I didn't date at the time.
How can my heart beat faster?
This is an awkward feeling.
Is this an illusion of my unreal feelings
Or is this a phase I have to get over?
I can't be sure, I can't be accurate
My accuracy is playing with my mind
I can't eat nor sleep, I feel uncomfortable
The eyecontact, your smile is so vivid
Your blowing kisses so intimate
I feel naked in your surroundings
Surrounded by the nakedness I feel empty
I feel complete and oh so empty
My face is falling apart, you keep me straight
Am I in love, or is this just a teenagecrush?
How can my heart beat faster?
This is an awkward feeling.
Is this an illusion of my unreal feelings
Or is this a phase I have to get over?
I can't be sure, I can't be accurate
My accuracy is playing with my mind
I can't eat nor sleep, I feel uncomfortable
The eyecontact, your smile is so vivid
Your blowing kisses so intimate
I feel naked in your surroundings
Surrounded by the nakedness I feel empty
I feel complete and oh so empty
My face is falling apart, you keep me straight
Am I in love, or is this just a teenagecrush?
Hello dear readers.
I'm a big fan of words, putting them together and taking them apart. Many have told me to create a blog like this, because I express myself in words more than I do in speaking. This is going to be my first blog, just to tell you about myself. I bet most of my blogs are going to be some of my poems, personal or not so personal, and mostly my thoughts and opinions on different kind of things. I'm a very open person, I do love to write more than I do like to speak.
Here are some shorthanded facts: My name is Matt, I'm 18, born July the 11th. I have a boyfriend whom I love. I'm in year 12 in QEHS in Hexham, which is in the UK. (Google it). I'm no fan of chatting sides, though I do love to meet new people. It is kind of weird, I know. My humour is mostly racist, dark and plain weird. I say what is on my mind, I do not stop because someone might get hurt. I'm only 5''3 (164cm) and I hate tall people, or at least those who are taller than me, who is... everyone. I use too many abbreviations when I chat online or text.
Some might call me an arrogant idiot, but if you get 78 messages on facebook and myspace every single day, you don't have time to send everyone a smiley or a heart or an x. It's get hard to reply every single one of the messages, but I do try the best I can. I don't see myself as a famous myspace whore like Matthew Lush, Jstar or Danielle Fidelity. I have myspace to learn about different cultures and religions, and maybe I will come visit you in India, the US or something something.
I hope that I will get some response on some of my poetry and short stories, and if you will be kind, please pass my blogspot ID further on, I would like to get many readers!
Links:
www.myspace.com/mattscowisonfire
www.formspring.me/gritmaballz
Facebook: Matthew Patrick Bowers
Matt//OVER AND OUT. x
Here are some shorthanded facts: My name is Matt, I'm 18, born July the 11th. I have a boyfriend whom I love. I'm in year 12 in QEHS in Hexham, which is in the UK. (Google it). I'm no fan of chatting sides, though I do love to meet new people. It is kind of weird, I know. My humour is mostly racist, dark and plain weird. I say what is on my mind, I do not stop because someone might get hurt. I'm only 5''3 (164cm) and I hate tall people, or at least those who are taller than me, who is... everyone. I use too many abbreviations when I chat online or text.
Some might call me an arrogant idiot, but if you get 78 messages on facebook and myspace every single day, you don't have time to send everyone a smiley or a heart or an x. It's get hard to reply every single one of the messages, but I do try the best I can. I don't see myself as a famous myspace whore like Matthew Lush, Jstar or Danielle Fidelity. I have myspace to learn about different cultures and religions, and maybe I will come visit you in India, the US or something something.
I hope that I will get some response on some of my poetry and short stories, and if you will be kind, please pass my blogspot ID further on, I would like to get many readers!
Links:
www.myspace.com/mattscowisonfire
www.formspring.me/gritmaballz
Facebook: Matthew Patrick Bowers
Matt//OVER AND OUT. x
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